A Brief Rumination On Time

Dominick Montalto

 

People often speak of 'the building blocks' of Time (as I've also discussed in my own poems on the subject), when they should really speak of 'the destructive hands' of Time. Time shovels on, its sickle wasting away each day. It separates the wheat of what we are meant to learn from the day’s passing moments, away from the chaff that oddly cushions but often hides the kernels of truth and wisdom that curry no pleasure with the gods because they are already in full possession of what we all live and suffer our way through to the ends of life to discover.

I see Time in the guise of a mantle-cloaked figure of apocalypse, wandering down an empty highway, a pocket watch hanging like a pendent from his fingertips, vacillating like the pendulum in a Victorian grandfather clock, whose almost imperceptible clicking in the foreign silence tears the heart with innumerable stabs of futility. And as he walks down the highway, the ground beneath him begins to disintegrate and fall away into the darkness, the void of earth, below. This is the movement, the passage of Time; as each step is taken farther and farther from your beginnings, from your youth, the past is born, a figure that grows larger and larger, looming with a thousand faces, each one terribly obscured in the continuous march of Time toward the inevitable end of days.

In the face of this figure, the life you have lived loses its hard edges. The interlocking curves and points which used to connect so clearly and neatly into one other become worn and misshapen, so that each moment we once harbored in the port of our memory is drowned in the grave of the sea that we doubly weep over. Once for never being able to experience it a second time, and then again because it has become tainted within these waters of oblivion.

The greatest sin, the greatest sorrow, is that no moment can be lived again, no matter how pleasurable or painful. The tread of Time down the highway of life leaves one with fragments, and only the miraculous vision of the heart, which has no knowledge or experience of clock time, can redeem the life of the mind and the spirit.

 

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